weekend was amazingly well spent with wonderful children! i mean seriously! they are ever so precious! am ever so grateful and blessed to have been given the chance to do this. i finally decided that theres nothing more than id ever want to do right now and maybe in the future than working with children. theres a kind of satisfaction knowing that you have impacted their lives no matter how small the contribution. maybe once i get phots from dian then i'll post them here. this blog is too dusty for its own good. anws, children are such wonderful gifts from God! idk whats been happening to me. i guess its the maternal instincts? think im still quite overwhelmed by taking care of children and all.

right. right now, the most important thing to do is to be ready for china. but aside from China, theres major packing work to be done and like i am so not an organised person. just take a look at how i arrange my notes in my school bag. how do you expect me to organise the stuffs in my room in a box. idkkkk. omg its so frustrating like ttm. we're finally moving like after two years of talk and viewers coming in and out? living with grandmoms a while before we find a place of our own. it feels almost surreal but its been way overdue-this moving thing. somethings you just have to learn to let go i guess.

updating again when it feels right to.

in the meanwhile, im going to look forward to watching the sequel to this after ayeeeees.





Try listening to that from precious children who have no inkling about social norms or ugliness or hatred. really, this reduced me to tears. it was beautiful and touching you should have been there. From the eyes of innocent children, even the ugy are beautiful. whatever happened to us?

LOVES!

I keep having this bad feeling in my gut that the world is going to end even before i can do things that i want to do. so many signs. so many. ohmyword. It feels seriously scary. Losing somebody. Losing mine. Losing every chance of ever being able to kiss the scent of jannah. I guess human beings have this fear of the unknown. i dont know what will lie before me, but im scared of what will happen after me.  have you ever been afraid of being scared. i can only imagine how itd be like. too afraid t the extent of fearing fear itself. gosh this is like a cycle that knows no end.
( atnicerup )

i have this surge of emotions that i want to pour out but i cant seem to find the right words. how predictable is that. but in all sense of seriousness, yeah. to fit these feelings tru to what they are.  i have this piled up questions and thoughts that i never got around to asking people because i thought itd be too sensitive or i dont know who to ask.



random photos that have no link with anything, but this was yesterday. nothing i would trade in exchange for time with them.

Auf wiedersehen!

omg i missed the projrunway's secoond epi. i want to take sewing lessons in the future and sew my own dressesssss. and clothes. yes. save money+stamp on creativity and identity+different.

selamat hari raya! is it even legal to say raya greetings now?

Hi.

Things have been going on like how i never wanted it to be. At times it gets depressing, but well, what more can you ask for if this is what you have chosen right. I realised most of my posts are either depressing or like sad. I think this is my venting out frustrations and all outlet. yes, maybe it is. happier posts will come after a's are over. i hope.

there's so many things that i want to say, so many thoughts are in my mind. but i wont. now.
i miss my dad more than ever now that its ramadhan, not to say that i only miss him most when it is ramadhan. but, when you see families breaking their fast together, praying together and doing everthing together, you know what you are missing.
And im glad we met yesterday, even though fuzz had to go early and i was unproductive and shaf was sleepy. been like 105795028 years since. Company is all that matters i guess.

I think i wont be here anymore. not until ever.
okay, until after ayes. I see people around me so driven to excel and starting on their revison and my progress to work, is well just finishing school work. Havent been revising that much so a mental note to myslf: get cracking now, or reget it for life. as much as everyone wants to do well, i too want to ace a's. so hey, major exams are coming, and you can either control it or mess it up. make or break it.

insyaallah,
everything will run smoothly,

happy fasting!